Welcome 2011.

End of old, and the beginning of new.

Sometimes I wonder if God Himself laughs from Heaven when the new year rolls out. He just has been through so many, while the entire human race seems to slow down and even sometimes stop when there appears to be an extra number added on to the year. I wonder what it is. Does it mean that people have less time to do what they want to do;
less time to divulge themselves into everything that brings them pleasure and happiness;
less time to do what really makes them happy in life;
less time to spend with loved ones;
less time to count all their money in the bank;
less time to learn how to drive a stick;
less time to search for a long lost father;
less time to call your neighbor;
less time to bake that cake;
less time to learn how to juggle;

less time to spend reaching to others about their eternal Creator...

I hope it's the later, but sadly I know it isn't.

So this new year I will be thinking these things:

How thankful I am to have a loving family;
How thankful I am to have loving friends;
How thankful I am to be living this very second;
How thankful I am to have gone to counseling;
How thankful I am to be going to college;
How thankful I am to be learning how to grow close to a special someone all over again;
How thankful I am to have a healing heart and soul;
How thankful I am to have mentors that care about me;

How thankful I have a God that loves me and let me live a full year, and hopefully will let me live another one for His glory.

:) Happy New Year.

Yesterday.

There are days like yesterday that I know were specifically given to me like a tiny present wrapped by the hands of God Himself. A kind of "Here this is what it means to be really happy" or "This is what true family and fellowship looks like." Something that I will always remember and treasure.

I wish circumstances were different and if we all could roll back just minutes of everyday, we would, for just a few more with our loved ones.

Be with them tomorrow, God, hold their hands and their heads as the day progresses.

It's that Time Again.

21 Christmas' later and there is still something I will always learn about this holiday.

After all the presents are given,

After all the hooray is said,

After the food has eaten,

This is and will always be,

My family.

Hometown.

"Home is where the heart is"

this was home

but my heart has travelled

on the journey it has become weary

lost and hungry

days out in the elements

nights where it didnt know which way was up

but now we have come full circle

and now we both know

"Home isn't a place, but a state of mind."

and we're okay with that

:)

Beauty.

take my hand
be my guide
for your face
please dont hide

in this world
full of hate
i stand at the pass
the front of the gate

open the door
open my eyes
release you song
open your skies

pour down all your grace
let it rain your power
this is your time
i gaze from your tower

beauty is not what i seek
but beauty is what i found
from small flower to birds song
beauty has been all around

from this moment on
i will not turn
but open my heart
for what you yearn.

Deuces.

Today my flight leaves.

Today I leave my home behind.

(only for a short while)

Today I hope to step into something new.

Today I want to start anew.

Today I will miss someone special.

Today is a new day.

Today I'm chalking up my
deuces.




Who knows what tomorrow is?

Dusk & Summer.

shhh.

Press the button one more time.

Maybe this time the clock will stop.

:)

Bromance.

It's times like these where I know that I am where I am supposed to be.

A place where true community exists.

A place where new love interests can start.

A place where great friendships last the stand of time.

A place where God can thrive.

A place what I can now call home.

Finals.

I know God is ever present in any and all situations of my life.

But during finals week.

I feel like Satan runs rampart throughout campus.

The name of Jesus compels you Satan...go back to your fiery pit.

Man in the Moon.

Nights like last night.

are the ones where

you as the man

in the moon

to slow down time

so you can enjoy

every minute

one

second

at

a

time.

1 Cor 15:41 There is one glory of the sun, and another glory of the moon, and another glory of the stars: for one star differeth from another star in glory

The Nitch.

What I have observed tonight is something that I can't really explain.
Billions of people all over this world,
Each of them living simultaneously
Independently
Incompletely
There is not one person that has walked the same footpaths as the other
In the present
In the past
or in the future
But I'm not talking about lifetimes now.
But just one moment.
The one moment where their brain
body
soul
finds its nitch in this life
The moment in time where everything
melts away
Is put on hold
Is pushed aside
And that person lives
Without a care in the world
For this moment is
Their world and that's all they care about.

Rubberband Man.

"wild as the taliban.

9 in my right

45 in my other hand."

some days i wonder if T.I. just wants to be a cowboy.

to ride the plains in search of something more.

one day stopping evil,

and finding his heroine.

i know i would.

Ordinary.

Today is just one of those days that falls in the midst of others.

No real sunshine, but no real clouds

Not really too hot, but not really too cold.

Not to happy, but not too sad.

Not to busy, but not too relaxed.

Just a day.

"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin and they end with no lasting memory made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life."

But.

Today is the day that the Lord has made, and regardless of how I feel on the inside...I will rejoice and be glad in it.

If Only.

If only. . .

If only we could.

If only we would.

If only time could be changed.

If only fate could be caged.

If only the sun rose

to never fall again.

If only the space was small.

If only the walls werent tall.

If only choices could differ.

If only they didnt matter.

If only the sky could be blue

and never be gray again.

If only things didnt die.

If only we didnt cry.

If only she didnt talk

If only you didnt walk.

If only you were real

but youre not.

Pour Into.

One day.

All these thoughts, feelings, emotions, actions...well...love...

They will pour into someone.

Someday.

Until then, I build the dams just a little bit higher.

And try not to drown as the waters rise.