Family.

Editors note: I plan to change the writing style until further notice. Thank you. :).

"Family –noun 1. a basic social unit consisting of parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not: the traditional family."

It seems to be something about Sundays.
Maybe it's the fact that I go to a larger church and get to see many people together at once.
Maybe it's the fact that there seems to be a common theme of that the entire family goes to church instead of only the saved ones.
Maybe it's the fact that I am part of a larger family called the "Invisible Church."
Maybe it's because I long for one of my own.
Maybe it's because I wish that I was a part of a family that took me to church.

Nevertheless. I notice them; every Sunday, and the thought never escapes me.

So today I pray:

God, mold my heart to have your desires. Make the desire of my heart to have a family align to your desire, and please at some point I wish to have one. Shed all the selfish reasons that I want one and turn my soul to strive to use it to solely glorify You. Amen.

Morning.

it's just one of those nights.

to lie in bed

and think all about

the quiet things that no one ever knows.

New Beginnings.

So far:

Best year of my life.

New Motto:

God has Moved, now it's my turn.

Realization:

I am a part of a Global community.

New Fact:

I really can do anything through Christ that strengthens me.

Blessings:

Every single person that is in my life, to the ones I see in passing to the ones that I can spend days with. Thank you.

Struggles:

Focus. Determination. Stength for what is Right. Knowing that sometimes it's God business not mine.

Hope:

That I can carry the name of Jesus.

Mission:

In EVERYTHING acknowledge Him, and He will direct my path.

I think this will be a great year.

Welcome 2011.

End of old, and the beginning of new.

Sometimes I wonder if God Himself laughs from Heaven when the new year rolls out. He just has been through so many, while the entire human race seems to slow down and even sometimes stop when there appears to be an extra number added on to the year. I wonder what it is. Does it mean that people have less time to do what they want to do;
less time to divulge themselves into everything that brings them pleasure and happiness;
less time to do what really makes them happy in life;
less time to spend with loved ones;
less time to count all their money in the bank;
less time to learn how to drive a stick;
less time to search for a long lost father;
less time to call your neighbor;
less time to bake that cake;
less time to learn how to juggle;

less time to spend reaching to others about their eternal Creator...

I hope it's the later, but sadly I know it isn't.

So this new year I will be thinking these things:

How thankful I am to have a loving family;
How thankful I am to have loving friends;
How thankful I am to be living this very second;
How thankful I am to have gone to counseling;
How thankful I am to be going to college;
How thankful I am to be learning how to grow close to a special someone all over again;
How thankful I am to have a healing heart and soul;
How thankful I am to have mentors that care about me;

How thankful I have a God that loves me and let me live a full year, and hopefully will let me live another one for His glory.

:) Happy New Year.

Yesterday.

There are days like yesterday that I know were specifically given to me like a tiny present wrapped by the hands of God Himself. A kind of "Here this is what it means to be really happy" or "This is what true family and fellowship looks like." Something that I will always remember and treasure.

I wish circumstances were different and if we all could roll back just minutes of everyday, we would, for just a few more with our loved ones.

Be with them tomorrow, God, hold their hands and their heads as the day progresses.

It's that Time Again.

21 Christmas' later and there is still something I will always learn about this holiday.

After all the presents are given,

After all the hooray is said,

After the food has eaten,

This is and will always be,

My family.

Hometown.

"Home is where the heart is"

this was home

but my heart has travelled

on the journey it has become weary

lost and hungry

days out in the elements

nights where it didnt know which way was up

but now we have come full circle

and now we both know

"Home isn't a place, but a state of mind."

and we're okay with that

:)