Jesus Christ

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
It’ll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out?
That everything good is happening somewhere else
But with nobody in your bed
The night is hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won’t know anyone

Well, Jesus Christ, I’m alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Because this problem's gonna last
More than the weekend

Well, Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die
I’m a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot
Do I float through the ceiling

Do I divide and fall apart
Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark
This ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands?

I know you'll come in the night like a thief
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up
(everyone now)
So do you think that we could work out a psalm
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try
I know you'll come for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories
But, we all got wood and nails
And talk dirt at hating factories
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine

Wingman.

Last night was formal and it was interesting. I will rate it with the following 10 point scale:




Food: 6

Show: 8

Date: 7

Best Friend: 5

Company of others: 7.5

Overall: 6.7

The night started on a bad note, then moved to okay, then decent, then to hell in a hand basket. I did my best to play the wingman, but to no avail. his date was throwing the wrong signals and did not have the right receptor = tough night.

Seems to be a trend of friends going through difficult times, I wish I could help each and everyone of you guys. :(.

Today = anti-social. Period.

day number one

no ties, no loop holes, no bridges, no back pedaling, no flashbacks, no u-turns,

no looking back.

Today is the first day where it has started settling in my soul that it is Me and my God. No ties of relationships or people in the past. Just myself, My God, and My Future. It seems scary. Something that I have yet ventured into in this part of my life. It seems it could be cold and dark. But we will see. A close friend told me to replace the fear with curiosity, that we were all born for this...this is what I will try to do from now on. World watch out.

Renew.

Last night was written the ending to a very long chapter. My heart finally decided

it was enough, and pushed my brain to one side and gave it all it had. Maybe in a

past life we would have been perfect for one another, maybe if we would have made

some different choices, maybe, maybe, but the truth is... I don't believe in past

lives and I don't believe in regrets and maybe...maybe just may not be part of my

vocabulary. So today I said goodbye, the last one, and told you to move on with

yourself. Then it rained. Even angels in heaven knew how important this was to you...

to us. But God knows. And will take care of us in His will. But for now, this chapter

ends, and another one begins. Goodbye, Godspeed, and I love you.

Rewind.

Tonight was the hardest night

my apologies.

i wish that life had a big rewind button, even if you only got to press it once

i think this counts as that time.

"The body forgets oh to quickly what the mind remembers."

ive always known that quote but never where i heard it from,

and its so painstakingly true.

your kiss last night took me to a better place.

your touch last night let me stay there.

your smile made me never want to leave.

but your eyes said that this was only for the moment.

Darkest Day.

God.

Where are you?

You have been so close and I have been listening for so long.

But now.

Nothing.

Last night was one of the hardest things I have had to do. I watched...again...as one of the most important people of my life...walk away...again.

I trust You.

I love You.

But I don't understand You.

Please____fill in______the blanks_____soon.

New Deo.

This is a new day.
Similar to the last,
May look like tomorrow.
But it is still a new day.

Friendships arise in the places where I am guarded. In places where I least expect it.



It only takes one crack to penetrate the structure.

Here's the hammer...

I got one...maybe two?

Friend:

People that one can talk to...and then listen to. That would swim the deepest, darkest oceans just to make sure the other person is doing "Okay."
People that can say the must uplifting things in a matter of seconds but on the other hand....may kill in the matter of moments.
People that can be located halfway around the world, but when you talk to them, it's like they are right next to you with a shoulder to cry on.
People that have the most beautiful souls, but have the most horrific pasts.
People that are there. Forever.
People I love. Forever.

Sunn.

^ is the book I have been reading ^

^ is the book in which I have been understand some things about being a man^

^ is the book where I realize what a father really is ^

^ is the book where I realize what happens when you dont have a father ^

v is the person in which results into not having a father v



v this is a sneak peak of some friends of a fatherless boy has v



v and this is how sometimes I feel like when I realize I dont know what its like v






























^ not knowing how to be a man ^

Realizations.

Today, April 7, 2010.

i found out that my laptop eats iphones. for some strange reason. i guess windows has installed a kill apple program on it so when ever i try to sync it just eats the software...sad day.

Time:
Created by God...but doesn't apply to God.
Has complete control over man...but man can not even grasp figments of it.
Something that effects everyone...but is only understood by a few.

Time:
I think for once in my life I have ventured into the arms of God...via Time.
Time Governs man but God governs Time.
Its awesomely wonderful.





Engagement:
in today's world it is shorter and shorter and almost non-existent. i have friends and loved ones who have had their whirlwind weddings. come -- gone. adults together forever.
if there are happy.
i know that's not for me.



Love:
I have loved
I have lost
I have lost love
I have loved my loss